The Night Shift

So, I got myself this fancy new superphone and the Blogger app. So far this is alot easier than using the tablet I was on before. Two reviews in one. Samsung Galaxy S4, amazing technological device, not sure if I will ever use it to its full potential. Blogger app, easy as pie to use. There you are hopefully the check is in the mail.
Alas, the whole reason I decided to write tonight is because I cannot get to sleep. I do not typically suffer from sleep abnormalities, except a lack of good rest. I suppose this is self inflicted as I have chosen a line of work that requires long hours. My current schedule is 7 days, 7 nights, 7 off, 12 hour shifts plus 1.5 hours commute. It is a bit of an arduous schedule. Apparently it's safer than working straight days or nights. Whoever figured that out never tried it for a year or two. I don't really know where this is going so bear with me. I think where I am at right now is just a general dissatisfaction with work in general. Mostly the machine. I am not a fan of feeding this machine. I am sick of being a hamster on the wheel. It's not that I am a slack ass, or completely anti- establishment, an anarchist maybe, but I have a strong sense of community which is actually a value of an anarchist system. I have a want to be part of something epic. Creating something good. For the betterment of mankind. I feel restrained. Shackled to the bars that seperate me from my goals. I can see it but can't seem to break free. This is a resentment that is eating at my soul, it turns me inward, towards the darkness. The night shift.
I look for inspiration and it surrounds me.
I see it in a few of my friends, the ones that are finding happiness in simplicity. The amature athletes competing in the winter olympics in Sochi, Russia. Through pain an adversity they struggle to accomplish their dreams.
Maybe I am not trying hard enough. Maybe I am before my time.
I really don't know. For possibly the first time in my life I feel like that is the right answer. I do not know. That's a step in the right direction I guess, not having the answer and being ok with it. Waiting for guidance, a sign from above that it's time to make a move. A move to break the chains. Simplicity is sustainability, I think there is something to that statement.  How I implement that is another question.  The answer lies in observation. The natural systems that surround us always hold the answer, you just have to go in with eyes wide open. Day or night.